Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Last night we went to dinner with our parents so that they could meet for the first time. You would have thought that maybe with us having dated for a year and a half that our parents would have met by now.. but NOPE! But it went SO well! There were no awkward silences or any embarrassing conversations. It is such a relief that our families get along so well! It was kind of funny cause our parents were so enveloped in conversation it felt like Ryan and I were there just for supervision.. and to get a free meal!! te hehehehe. I ate WAY too much food. So much for a diet. haha I still have 4 months and 18 days to get in shape! Speaking of which, MY DRESS COMES THIS WEEK!! Well, its supposed to. That's what she told me last week. I am so pumped! I really wasn't supposed to be getting it till June, but now I am thankful that the dress lady was spacey and ordered it sooner.
I have one more paper to write and one more final and this semester is OVER! Now I have three classes left till my associates degree. I am signed up for two of those for this summer, but I'm trying to decide if I should just get it over with and take the third one this summer as well. My dear friend Jessica brought up a good point the other day, would it be worth it to declare for my associates when I'm planning on getting my bachelors eventually anyways? What do you think? It might take me another 4 years just to get it. lol.
On a more serious note... I want to apologize to all who had to deal with my whining and pity party attitude lately. Since Ryan and I decided to embark on our journey to getting ready for the temple, we thought we were prepared for the temptations and other things Satan would throw our way. WELL, somehow he knows how to find the cracks and get in anyway. He has been hitting me hard with self doubt, self consciousness, discouragement, and focusing on what I am not or don't have and comparing myself to others. These are all very self destructive. And I have been focusing so much on the things that I don't like about myself I forget to see the good. Although I have been reading my scriptures, saying my prayers and going to church this all seems to happen nonetheless. Then when I had one of my break downs, my father and I had a talk where he brought up a very good point. Why do you think we are asked to thank Heavenly Father for things when we pray? Not because he wants to be thanked for all he has given us, but so we might really realize all that we really do have and how blessed we really are. Its so amazing how God answers our prayers. On Sunday we sang Count your blessings in sacrament meeting.... coincidence??? I think not.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Wo little me.

Does it ever feel like you have to work harder than everyone else to get what you want? Ryan and I have been feeling kind of bummed lately. It feels like alot of people we know are getting hooked up with good paying jobs, or houses or whatever. Mind you this is merely for venting purposes, because I'm not saying that all of these people don't deserve them or didn't work hard to get these things, because I really am genuinely happy for them. It is just hard to see everyone elses hard work pay off, but ours never seems to, even when we aren't asking for much. I'll keep trying to think that it will one day... but as for now, its my party and I'll cry if I want to.

Sunday, April 19, 2009


Yesterday was so nice, Ryan and I went and hit a bucket of balls. Mind you, I dont know how to golf, mini golf is the only extent of golfing I have ever participated in, and I get quite bored and frustrated with the sport. Neither of us really knew what we were doing, but it actually was pretty fun. I need to remember this next time I need to get out some aggression! When we were done, I wanted to go pick up all the balls in the driving range like easter eggs! haha

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Hit me baby one more time!

Last night I went to Britney Spears and Pussy Cat Dolls concert. It was SO much fun. My friend Mika text me on Monday and said that our friend Jacquie's sister had two extra tickets and was giving them to her so she invited me to go! I giggled at the thought of going to a concert where there would be THOUSANDS of under aged girls. But it really was a blast!! We went to Cafe Rio before.. YUMMY!
We sat so far up it was kinda scary. Walking down the stairs was scary cause they were so steep if felt like if you fell you would fly off the edge!
Pussy Cat Dolls opened for Britney. They were great!! They were very friendly and talking to the audience alot. It would be so much fun to do what they do. Sing their hearts out and dance around. I'm not so sure on their outfits though..
Since Britney's recent CD was Circus, the whole concert was themed that way. Before Britney came out they had like 20 min of people doing stunts and stuff. It was pretty cool! It sucked though because all of the younger girls stood the whole time, and with being so high up already you didn't really need to stand to see everything. So that was quite bothersome.
Then Britney FINALLY came out. I'm pretty sure she didn't even sing HALF of her songs. And she didn't even say anything to us till have way through the concert. It made me wonder if they took away her talking privilege's since she said some stupid things at the last few stops on her tour. haha But she looked good, almost too good....
She sang alot of her fun old stuff, but there was new stuff that she did that was kind creepy. But in between her costume changes they would have these video flashbacks playing with some of her songs. They make her look so hot. When do you see her that hot outside of performing anymore?? SERIOUSLY. Some of the time it almost seemed like she wasn't really into it. Nonetheless, it was so much fun! You can never pass up FREE!
Easter weekend was great even though my whole family was out of town. I got to spend alot of time with Ryan's family and it was so much fun. I went shopping with his little sister Kenzie to try on bridesmaid dresses and we ended up buying alot of clothes with no relation to the wedding. Its been awhile since I have just spent money on myself like that so it was enjoyable. (except the anxiety of spending money). Sunday was such a beautiful day. And I must say I love how all this precipitation is making all the grass so green! We went to church and then had dinner at his parents house. My little brother came with us since no one was home at my house. He got along SO well with Ryan's family. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. It makes me so happy that our families can get along and more so that my brother fits in! He can be shy sometimes but man he is a witty character. We are going to go to dinner with our parents in a few weeks cause they haven't met each other yet. I'm not sure how to feel about it. Hopefully it will go well! My lovely married friends... how did it go when your parents met for the first time?? Just curious!
ps. I found my snowboard boots!! Too bad the resorts are closed now! At least I will have some for next year. These weren't the ones I was looking at at first but they came on
http://www.whiskeymilitia.com/ for $60. Can't pass that up. And they do match my board pretty well. :)

Thursday, April 9, 2009

5 months and 8 days.. but who's counting?

I decided this is my new thing:
I love Red box. There have been nights where my family isn't home and Ryan is working and there is nothing good on TV. So I go to Red box, grab a movie and a treat and just relax! I quite enjoy it. :) And its only a buck!
I called my "fairy godmother" yesterday to double check on when my dress would be in. She is a little spacey. We had agreed to have it shipped in June just so it will be a little more "fresh". But she forgot and just ordered it for April! So I should be getting it at the end of this month! I am SO excited! Oh and also Im pretty sure I found my bridesmaids dresses! They will be pretty cheap too! Im not even trying and getting things done. I MUST BE STOPPED.
I have been pondering what I should do for my shoes. Jessica (my MOH) thinks I should do pink shoes. I always wanted pink shoes.. but is it over done? I found these on eBay yesterday. They are so cute but I have a hard time pulling off peep toe shoes because my second toe is longer than my big toe and it looks like my toes are flipping me off. hahaha
I know I still have plenty of time to figure it out. I also have some clear shoes that I wore for a dance in high school. My mom calls them my glass slippers... but Im scared that people will think "stripper shoes". I need to post a picture sometime of them to see what you think.
ps. I need a new hobby or something to keep my mind from focusing on the wedding so much! Any ideas or suggestions would GREATLY be appreciated. :)

Monday, April 6, 2009

Freak gasoline fight accident

I have to share something pretty funny that happened to me no less than an hour ago. I was out running an errand for my boss and needed to stop at the gas station to fill up the company car. I was only going to put like $10 in. I hooked everything up and put on the latch so I didn't have to hold it the whole time and watching it for when it gets to $10. $9.85......$9.93....$9.96...$9.97..$9.98..$9.99....$10.00! I reach down to unhook the latch so it will stop. Well the damn thing wouldn't stop... $12.52.... I giggled it and wriggled it and got my finger stuck underneath the latch. The gas stopped pumping for half a second...$15.32..... and in that half of a second I'm pulling the thing out of the tank it squirts EVERYWHERE and ALL over me!!!!!! I just quickly hung up the hose and jumped in the car. I was SO embarrassed! And oh boy did I reek of gas BAD. I had to drive with the windows down. I couldn't run straight home but as soon as I had the chance I did. Ripped my clothes off as soon as I walked in the door and jumped in the shower. So lesson learned: make sure that no gas is flowing when you pull it out of your car :). hahahahahaha
ps. did any of you married girls have dreams about your wedding like every night before?? I have been having so many crazy ones lately! They are not helping! My dream last night was that my dad couldn't come to my wedding because he had meetings for work and I was so upset at him. We even tried to do it on a different day but he had meetings then too. Funny thing is... my dad has always been so great and this is something he would NEVER do! I also had a dream the other night that its was my wedding day..- but then I realized that it was only April and I freaked out cause I didn't have anything ready besides my dress. And because I freaked out Ryan broke up with me! How sad!! Please tell me I am not the only one that has these crazy dreams!

Friday, April 3, 2009

Good news!!

They found my mom and gramma's luggage!!!! They will be reuniting with it on Sunday when they get to Whitsunday, their first stop in Australia! They are a day ahead of us so that would be tomorrow for them! YAY! Thank you to those who said a quick prayer for them. :)

First Purchase

Well... my first purchase with my tax refund...
Just the sofa and the love seat! I am oh so excited!! I found them for a really good deal on KSL.com. It was $600 for the set! It was kind of a spur of the moment kind of thing but we definitely needed couches! Nothing like buying furniture to make you feel like a grown up. hahaha. I still have my eyes on the snowboarding boots though! And I would like some opinions on which ones you like more. I'm just so indecisive and cant seem to choose for myself. :)